I wanna rock and roll all nite……

Almost exactly one year ago, I found out the job that I had accepted a mere four months earlier was being dissolved due to COVID-19 related budget cuts. It was a total gut-punch because I didn’t see it coming especially since it was a newly created role that was supposed to be important for the future of the company. The thing that I’ve now come to realize is that COVID or not, it clearly wasn’t the job/company for me, but that realization still hasn’t made this last year of unemployment any easier. And in regards to this past year, to quote the Grateful Dead, “What a long, strange trip it’s been!”.

Dealing with the loss of your job is one thing, but losing it during a pandemic is a totally different monster. I had absolutely no idea what to expect in terms of just how long I’d be out of work. For the first 4-5 months, there was really just so much uncertainty that very few public relations/communications jobs were actually being posted. It was during this time that I made a promise to myself when it came to my next job, and that promise was to not settle for something that I wouldn’t absolutely love, both professionally and personally. I knew that while this was an unexpected period of unemployment, it was also an unexpected chance to get back to loving what I do and who I work for.   

When I first really started applying to jobs, I was using my long-form curriculum vitae (CV) and I quickly realized that it was something I needed to change. As a writer, I still love my long-form CV, but I knew that most hiring managers during COVID weren’t going to spend the time reading anyone’s four-page CV. So I turned my CV into a two-page PDF resume (purple of course!) and that’s when the floodgates really started to open in terms of phone calls and interviews.

During this time, I spoke with a lot of great people at a lot of different interesting companies, but there was always just something missing with each job. There were some great opportunities presented to me, but none of them was the perfect fit that I was searching for. For me, they just weren’t the kind of jobs that would spark a deeper sense of professional and personal satisfaction. They also didn’t feel like the place where I could finally plant my roots and grow, which was also really important to me. But then I got a phone call that would change everything. 

Now while I was unemployed, I did get to take two incredible road trips (which I’ve written about in previous posts) that I would have never been able to do while I was working at my previous job. Those two trips, along with the support of my incredible wife, truly kept me going through this period of time. The second of those trips was to Prince’s Paisley Park, which was one of the most incredible experiences that I’ve ever had. I didn’t need a trip to Paisley Park to reassure me that music is a huge, meaningful part of my life, but it also didn’t hurt. I think subconsciously that I knew that live music (and fun events) once again had to play some part in my next professional journey…..So now back to that phone call.  

 I literally knew from my first phone call with the team at Hard Rock Atlantic City that it was exactly where I wanted and needed to be. When the position was offered to me, I was so happy that I was essentially speechless on the phone (which if you’ve ever met me in person, you’ll know is rarer than winning the lottery). So I’m beyond excited to announce that starting this May, I will officially be Hard Rock Atlantic City’s new Public Relations Manager!  

 I’ve been a fan of the Hard Rock brand and Hard Rock AC for years, so it’s truly incredible that I’m now the newest member of the band. I can’t wait to hit the ground running and play a role in all the incredible events that Hard Rock Atlantic City has to offer. I hope that you’ll all make a trip to Atlantic City and check them out soon as well!   

Now that I’m no longer looking for work, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has helped me this past year. There are way too many people to name here, but I just want you all to know that every LinkedIn/Facebook/Text message or phone call was greatly appreciated. I was given some incredible professional advice and support over the past year, and I do hope that I’m able to pay that forward in the future. And for all of you who were affected by COVID and are still out of work, just know that your time is coming soon as well. I know at times that it is impossible to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but trust me when I say that better days are ahead. I’ve been there, and I’m living proof of that, so just keep the faith.

Hard Rock Atlantic City also has some pretty incredible Prince memorabilia, so I obviously had to include some photos of it at the end of this article. The photos in order are: Prince’s Lovesexy outfit from the 1988 Grammys, a red lace bib insert he wore during the Purple Rain tour, and one of his iconic custom cloud guitars. I’m also pretty excited that I get to walk by them every day at work!

It’s Dark & Hell is Hot

Legendary rapper (and actor) Earl Simmons, better known as DMX, passed away Friday April 9th, 2021. He was a legend of his craft and at one point my favorite rapper, so I felt compeled to write a few words about him.

Thanks to two older brothers, I listened to hip-hop music at a very young age. While I listened to a lot of my brothers’ music, it was DMX who felt like MY first real hip-hop superstar. His debut album, It’s Dark and Hell is Hot came out right before the summer of 1998 and it quickly became 12-year-old Justin’s album of the summer. I played that album on my Discman almost my entire trip to Cape May that summer, so of course when I was on the Wildwood boardwalk and saw a shirt that simply read “DMX – It’s Dark & Hell is Hot” I just had to buy it. Little did I know that a few months later this shirt would have me sent home from school because of its explicit lyrics. I went to a very diverse public school in Allentown, PA and I found it absurd then and even more so now as an adult.

In March of 2000, DMX and his Ruff Ryders Entertainment labelmates’ tour with Cash Money Records (Juvenile, Lil Wayne, BG, Big Tymers) came to Philadelphia and I begged my mom to take me. None of my friends’ parents would let them go to such a “dangerous” concert, so as a 14-year old I went to this show alone while my mom and her boyfriend hung out in the city. It was an incredible experience, and 21 years later I still have the Ruff Ryders beanie that I bought at the show. I was so into DMX during this time that I bought his first 6 albums on the day that they came out and would wind up buying other artists like DJ Clue and Dragon’s albums just becuase DMX was on a song or two.

However, as I got older, I started to enjoy other hip-hop acts much more than DMX. I think that part of my maturity process meant that songs with super violent, aggressive, and even homophobic lyrics honestly just didn’t interest me as much anymore. DMX was an imperfect human and it really showed on his albums. You could have a song like “Where the hood at?” which features extremely homophobic lyrics like “How you gonna explain f*cking a man? Even if we squashed the beef I ain’t touching your hand.” followed by a heartfelt prayer to god a few songs later. Also, while DMX has taken a lot of heat in the past for his homophobic lyrics, he also has tons of lyrics that could be considered very homoerotic including a line a few verses later in “Where the hood at?” where he talks about one man holding his private parts while another man performs oral sex. DMX was a talented yet extremely complicated artist.

DMX’s lyrics across his career are full of contractions and imperfections. He was a self-proclaimed religious child of god who committed a bible’s worth of sins. He was a loving, fun human being filled with incredible anger stemming from terrible childhood trauma. He knew that addiction was a terrible thing but no matter how hard he tried, he just couldn’t escape those demons which ultimately cost him his life. When it comes to celebrities, DMX was truly as “real” as they come and that’s what made him so popular. He was an honest man with just as many faults as you and I, and he wore his emotions on his sleeve. For a period of time, he was the top dog in hip-hop and he brought a level of intensity to the genre not seen before. Even though I still don’t listen to his music as much as I used to, when a song of his pops up on a playlist or in my car, I’m still taken back to a very specific period of time and filled with nostalgia. Rest in peace DMX